Day 86. This should be a complete breeze by now. I should have a well established routine and the weight should be falling off me. But it isn't. It seems to be getting harder and harder. I'm off work again too. Had more bum surgery so can't exercise. Can't do much apart from lay on setee feeling sorry for myself and wandering what I can eat!
But yeah, this weightloss mission is definately getting harder and harder. Apart from on week one when I lost 10lbs, I have struggled every week only loosing 2lb here and 1lb there and the occassional 3 pounder on a really good week.
Its so bloody frustrating.
I'm so annoyed I took my eye off the ball and ended up putting on three fecking pounds. But I did. So the situation now is:-
I STILL need to loose TEN POUNDS to reach my 3 stone goal. I STILL need to loose SIX pounds within the next 3 weeks to make sure my BMI is absolutely definatley 100% UNDER 29!
I don't have time to mess up another week. If I fuck up again and eat something I shouldn't it means I have fucked up my chance at having a much longed for baby. So that is the harsh reality. I need to get my head into gear, stop pissing about and SORT IT OUT!!
2008-06-18 @ 21:10