Well I went to the clinic this morning - bright and early as planned.

They took a blood sample without too much trouble. For some reason my veins are always very un-cooperative when it comes to giving blood and usually it turns into a complete performance! Anyway, I had one good juicy vein today which was good. The nurse is hoping it stays that way for the next month 'cos there are many more blood tests to come!

Next i had the baseline scan (internal scan using suspicious looking wand thing = dildocam) all rather embarrasing but nothing that the sonographer hasn't seen before!! Was a bit depressing to be able to see the screen showing am empty space in my womb - hopefully that will change by the end of this! Anyway she said everything looked good and she was happy for me to proceed with this cycle.

Then I had the first burselin injection which the nurse did for me. The burselin stings a bit but is nothing I can't handle. Couldn't feel the needle as it is so fine.

I felt very calm and positive today at the clinic. I couldn't get too excited though 'cos one look around the waiting room was enough to remind me what a fragile line I am walking on at the moment... one that could so easily break and leave me devastated. The woman sitting opposite me looked really upset and had obviously been crying before she arrived. Several others had a look of worry and hopelessness etched on their faces. A few of the other women seemed to be quitely hoping that perhaps their dreams would come true - they seemed to look quitely confident that just maybe they would get their much longed for baby. And I was one of those women today. Please let me keep walking this happy line and let my dream come true. PLLEEEAASSSSSEEEEEEE.

Anyway I rang the clinic this afternoon for my blood test results and my FSH levels are perfect, scan is perfect so I am to go back to clinic tomorrow for another early morning appointment for another blood test and another scan. Yippeeee.