Well i was doing so well today.

But then I happened across a tub of Skinny Cow Choc Cookie icecream and seem to have eaten nearly the whole tub!! Yum.

Oh well. Must try harder tomorrow!

Well the good news is I have got up this morning and have retained my new found enthusiasm and motivation from yesterday!! Yippee.

I've downed a chocolate milkshake, 1 litre of water and a cup of coffe for breakfast and am ready to face the day!

Phew! I've only put on one pound so my crazed binge eating has resulted in minimal damage. It could have been much much worse!

My lovely w8 consultant talked some sense back into me so i feel motivated for the week ahead. So I'm going back onto the regular plan which means:-

4 foodpacks per day
4 litres of water per day
small chicken breast/salmon fillet with leafy carb free veg for tea
tea/coffe with skimmed milk (upto 1/2 pint per day)

I'm gonna try to walk for at least 30 mins every day too. This will probably have to be after work in the evening because i am just too lazy to get up early no matter how hard i try!!

I'm hoping for a weight loss of at least 3 pounds next week. Ideally I'd like to loose another 2 stone 4 pounds over the forthcoming months. Obviously I will have to fit this in around fertility treatment so I'm just gonna concentrate on one week at a time and see what happens.

Uh-oh. Its weigh day tomorrow. Not had a good week food wise. In fact had a completely dismal week and exercised no self control whatsoever. I've eaten loads of crap - sausage roll, banana cake, chips, digestive biscuits, icecream, rose wine etc etc etc.

So I think I've put on a good 2 lbs.

This is something of a disaster because I cannot afford to put any weight on at all or we will not get the fertility treatment. But i have used food to comfort eat my way through a difficult week. Despite knowing i shouldn't. Despite knowing that it will make me put weight on. But i still did it anyway ... how goddam annoying!

OMG its like being back at the beginning!!! I'll have to muster up the energy to get back on track and start loosing weight again. In fact, no, I am not back at the beginning - I am still 2 stone 12lbs lighter than i was a few months ago which is a pretty good achievment.

But anyway I think I'm gonna get myself back in ketosis and try to shift another stone before the start of my next IUI. Only problem is I don't know when that will be. Could be two weeks, could be five weeks. Nobody knows. It all depends when my body decides it is ready. So its kinda hard to plan anything. Oh well. I'll just take it as it comes.

But for now I'm going back on a WEIGHTLOSS MISSION! Happy days.